my bunny died few minutes ago and idk what to do now...its like i feel emptiness and i'm lost at same time...
its not like i didn't expect it...his vet told me that they usually age 3y and my bunny was 3.5 yo...it is...it is just...i wanted him to live forever...i know i'm selfish but...
pets are family members and i really believe he was our 6th member...judging by every one's face i guess my family believed so too.even my mom who was against having a pet at first is crying for him...we all cried for loosing him...
i know i'll never forget him...
the night my bro brought him home i was sleep already...i remember the first thing my mom told me in morning was your brother brought a bunny...i thought he bought another stuffed animal because my bro has this habbit to fill me&my little sis's room w/ stupid stuffed animals...i was like not again and i don't have place for it but when i saw it i was surprised to see a cute pure white living creature that was staring at my w/ his bloody red eyes...it was so beautiful and the cutest ever...and so small he fit the palm of my hand and i could lift him w/ one hand or put him in cup.later he grow so much that i had to use both hands and the help of my sister to lift him up:XD when his vet told me whad do you feed him?he is so fat.it made me happy and i told him he is taking after our family jokingly:XD
the first time i hold him in my hands i felt ahhh life can take such small form too.it was really really nice good new feeling.i never felt this even holding newborn babies.i never forget that moment.
my bro told me he went to buy a hamster but he saw this one,he was the only rabbit among hamsters and it felt so lonely so he changed his mind.i laughed so hard when i knew instead of bringing him home straightly my bro took him to his friends fastfood store:XD my bro said the first thing he ate was felafel which probably explain his weird taste in food too:XD
we wanted to name him barfi which means snow because he was pure white...but bro said its soooo mainstream and everone who has white pet call him barfi..so we translated it to japanese and called him yuki.
dad usually supports my mom when she says no pet but once we buy it he is more interested than us...my dad never learnt to call him yuki...he called him koki all his life...and whenever we corrected him its yuki he said he is sure he heard us talk about koki so he thought its him:XD my dad mistook me&sis's fangirling over koki.dad's corrected edited version wasn't yuki tho:XD it was kooki:XD but we said nothing because yuki himself was responding to my dad calling him koki.
my mom is against having pet by default.she doesn't like pets and yuki was no exception either.she said i don't have anything to do w/ him and you bought it so you have to take full responsibly all the 3 of you.it got even worst when yuki ate all the flowers my mom planted in few days:XD(she loves her flowers sooooooooo much)but after a while she started to talk to him,call him,and my mom was the one who discovered how much he loves corn and pepper.she used to save his share while cooking and then she would call him "yuuki felfel"(felfel means pepper) yuki was responding to that voice and ran toward her to take his food.she would even cleaned his place when my bro was busy or feed him when me&sis had studies.and now even she was crying for him so hard.
bunnies are spoiled...and newzealand white are more than spoiled compared to other bunnies.we shared duties.i fed and played w/ him in first half of the day and my sis in 2nd half.my bro had buying his thing,taking him for vet visits and cleaning his houses duty.i used to wake up at 5AM when i was still in uni.the first thing was playing w/ yuki.if i oversleep for one day he would miff and wont answer my call:XD i had to bring him corn to make up with him.it was really hard to make up w/ him in winter when there is no corn:XD
bunnies love to be patted on the head and nose and in yuki's case on the back of neck.the more you pat and massage them the more they feel comfortable and lie on the ground.i loved when yuki did this.and the happier they are the more they lick you:XD licking is like "i love you" in their language so it always made me happy.he showered my hands licking me that i had to take shower sometimes:XD
he loved to decorate his house by his own.bunnies don't want water they use the water in greens when they are thirsty but we thought its better he have some water in case he was thirsty.but yuki didn't liked the idea he spattered the water and throw its plate in the living room:XD but we were more stubborn and brought back the plate with water for him he did the same and we too.in the end he spattered the water but didn't throw its plate in the living room instead he hide it somewhere that my hand can't reach in his house LOL
his favorite place to hide was my father's room:XD he used to hide under my father's work table:XD
nothing is cuter than a rabbit that jump around out of happiness and lie down imittiating your way of lieng down on the ground:XD
he is imitating my sis while studying:XD
once he was playing in me&sis room and i was having squable w/ my sis because she made the room messy w/ her school stuffs and then yuki started playing w/ her notes making them even more messy.it made us laugh so hard in middle of serious fight and we forgot everything:XD
my cousin(my aunt's doughter) is the only children i got along and played w/ in my life,she really loved him when she came to visit iran.even now after years she ask me to send his pics for her.i remember she tasted each lettuce before giving it to him so she can make sure they are tasty.that was cute of 6-7yo child.wonder how should i tell a 10yrs child about yuki now T.T maybe i should ask my aunt to tell her.
he was scardy cat LOL a real coward:XD like even a fly would make him run to seek one of family members emprace.once there was noise coming from his house and the next second he was burying his face in my stomach turned out there was a cockroach in his place:XD he even can't stand my aunt's(uncle's wife,but i call her auntie) mina bird:XD
back then when he was under 1yo i was new to KT fandom and i happened to be into smile back then.i remember singing and playing smile for him.later it become his song in my mind.now that i think of it,the lyrics say it for me.they really fit well.
he never enters the living room in winter prefers staying in his own house but before his last moments he come toward living room,he couldn't walk well so i carried him and he spent his last minutes among us,yuki i'm gratefull that you wanted to bid us proper farewell.you were&are and always will be the cutest pet in the world until the end:<3
i believe and always believed pets live long only when they get love from their owner,so i want to assume our love reached him.i hope he had fun being in our family for 3.5years.we are going to move in new house around his birthday and while searching for house my mom was considering a house that has good place to put his house in it too.now it feel sad.i promise i never forget you♥ you always brought happiness to me.
at least i'm glad he didn't suffered alot before death.
"Through changing seasons, with unchanged feelings, we have painted this moment in our colors, such is our greatest treasure
Because the day we met and the laughter we shared will forever stay in my memory